We R Who We R

Last night I realized I hadn't written any poetry in a really long while, and I think I will remedy that soon. But for now, I think I just want to type, about what, well that will come as these paragraphs go.

Operation Hook Up with Anatomy Guy has been called to a halt, as I think I should probably talk to him first, and quit smiling at the thought of a certain other guy. I mean, we don't know anything about this kid besides the fact that he was in our anatomy class last semester. I should at least know what program he is in.

Anymore it seems that the more and more I get away from Ian, the more I want to run back. I know its sad, its been all of two weeks, almost three, and I want to run back. I know I shouldn't as he can be a douche at times, but I do not know what to do about him anymore.  Maybe he is who I am meant to be with, yeah, still not so sure on that part.

I thought back to my old high school crush today on the bus from target and it made me realize how much better I am now that I am away from all that. He never liked who I was, and I am proud of who I am.

I am a geeky, dorky, Ke$ha dancing, dirty little freak, who can be goth, emo, punk, and preppy at the same time. I am a strong, smiling, amazing, better than that, Chatham Woman. Future Physical Therapist, mother, aunt, godmom, wife, fiance, accountant, home owner, grocery shopping, hott, perfectly imperfect woman. Its who I am, and who I have had issues realizing that it truly is me. I have not been able to recognize myself for what I am in the mirror for quite some time until this week, and I guess it means I am getting better at least with my mental part. I will always be slightly mental, but hey, its us crazies who make the world funner.  Aren't we all a bit of crazy? I sing, I laugh, I cry, I try to have fun, I have amazing friends at both of my homes, and I am not ashamed to say that I am me.

Now to go spend some time with those girlies tonight, and enjoy life's simple things, just not twinkies, I am so not into those.

Your's Truly
Laurel Lee