Or at least, thats what I said to myself every day I was in Akron. Yep, I can relate the first 18 years of life to beauty and the beast. Bookworm? Check. Jerk ass douchebag trying to get with me? Check. Beastly man who has my heart, Check. Crazy father who spends too much time fixing things and being stressed, check. Sure, I have my mother, but this isn't disney.
Everything is always the same, and honestly, whenever I am at home, everything is the same. Ellet kicks everyones asses at softball, my neighborhood never changes, the stores never change, routines never change, friends never change, and honestly, I feel as though Akron is locked in time. Nothing ever changes, Mayor Don is never going to leave, East will never have a chance at softball, Akron U will spend money on the failing sports and not on Soccer(which our soccer team is a-feaking-mazing. World Championship, you would never know we had one). People constantly getting pregnant(seriously, too many girls who graduated with me already have one child, some have another on the way), and the system for getting in for internships is still the same. aka, If you do not go to akron U, you do not get any.
Even my friends there have not changed too much. All still have pretty much the same problems, and honestly, there has to be more than that. There has to be.
And there is, once you get out of Akron, everything changes. I have heard that from the others who were in my graduating class and got out. You change, you grow, you adapt, and you learn that though your home has a hold on you because of your family, that if they really want you to suceed, that they get you out of there. That's why I want to live here once I graduate. Its why I want to leave Ohio, and only visit it once in a while. I do not want to be where everything stays the same. I want to be where the waters always changing, ever flowing(yep I just got you with Pocahontas). Home is where the heart is so they say, but home is where you are happy, and honestly, I am not happy in Akron, I am happy in Pittsburgh. Though my family and some of my closest friends are in Akron, its not my home, not anymore.
You have to change, you have to adapt, and you have to grow. You have to take the risk and go somewhere that you may not like, just to get out and experience something new. I am ever grateful that I took the plunge to go to an all girls school in Pittsburgh, I doubt I could be any happier than I am when I am here. I would still be grateful even if I hadn't taken the plunge. I am grateful for my family for nudging me out here, and helping me be happier, healthier, and better than I would have been if I had stayed in Akron.
Thankful for each and every one of you
La(in pittsburgh), Lo(at home)
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