Are We World Ready Enough?

I have been thinking about the last year quite a bit this week. From the fact that I went from having absolutely no use of my right leg, to walking, to sprinting, jogging, agillity, tugging, shifting, and now rock wall climbing is amazing. I have also been thinking about my class situation. This time last year I was afraid that I would have to retake chemistry again, now, I am free from it for a really long time. I had a total of four classes, now I am lucky just to have four on one day. I had an amazing roommate in the apartments, and now, I have closer relationships with friends though I am in a single. It's been a good, long year, and there are so many more to come. But its amazing to stop and think of everything you have done in a year. We won BOTC twice, softball score keeping had its best records though the stats were still screwed up though there was a flawless book. I walked, I ran, I moved, and lost thirty pounds. I saw my first hockey game at the Energy Center, broke up and then got back together with my boyfriend. Said goodbye to my sisters boyfriend before he left for the marines. He's back at home as of midnight btw. I played two games in fall ball, one of which we won, another in which we should have won. I attended an 80's dance, made it off campus a bit, and I spent time with the girls who I've come to see as family. Its been a good year, and there are only a few more left before we all seperate and go our separate ways into grad school, and into the real world. Thats what scares me, the real world and actually succeeding. Am I world ready enough? Well, I have another year before grad then three more after that to find out.

 Are we ever really ready to go out and make our own decisions? I do not mean living on campus in an apartment where there really is no monthly rent, and not to mention utility cost. How will we know that these are the steps we need to take as we are coached the entire step of the eay until someone says, hey, you're ready go find a job, a house, a significant other and live your life both safely, but also funly. Its impossible to know until we take those first steps, and we are all afraid of failure. But we have to remember, we will all fail sometimes. We try to stay positive but also have to expect the failure and have a back up plan. But what if the back up plan does not work. Their are so many What If's in life that the mere thought of it makes my mind reel.

Are we ever truly world ready women? Does it hit us when we graduate. Is it like a secret tattoo that once the ink is placed in your skin all the knowledge of what you need to know is transferred to your brain? No, its us taking those first few test steps into the water, testing the temperature to see if its right for us to jump in and not scald/freeze ourselves. We won't know until we actually do it and its the fact that we don't know what the results will be that makes the whole fear of the unknown so much greater. We are judged by our strengths, weaknesses, failures and choices, so its perfectly alright to be afraid to decide. Its fine to not want to make the decision, but we have to make that decision sometime.