Summer is almost over, and I am ready to get back to the swing of fall. The colors, the cooler air, the fall ball(come on, this is me so softball has to be somewhere in here), and of course, the beginning of the new school year. I miss pittsburgh, and having a set schedule of things I have to do. Hell, I miss the elliptical and running everyday. Old LoRo would never have said that. I guess I have changed a bit this summer, and for the better. I am more positive, and more happy with me. I used to hate myself, and think about anorexia or bulimia at least once a day. Now its like, who cares, this is me, I am healthy and so what if I have some curves. I don't absolutely love them, but now they are disappearing because I guess I have finally accepted them. It feels good to know that and to type that.
I can't wait to get back to my Chatham Family. Talking to my neighbor about it today, I realized how much I love those girls. I miss them all, and I know that the only reason I am any bit of happy and enjoying school out there is because of these guys. Always being there when we need them, randomly seeing them during the day, and of course just the random things that happen during the day when around them. They taught me to believe in the powers of the universe, to sing even when you are horrendous at it( I am the horrendous one), and most of all to find some fun and happy thing even when the situation is wrong. Hell, I even miss Lamb. who else can tell you that you will meet your soul mate after nearly being ran over by a horse in the english country side? Sure, we are a goofy bunch, but they are the most uniquely wonderful group of people who I am happy to call part of my family.
Another thing I have learned, which was not a recent find, was how much of a little kid still lives within part of me. Yes, the inner child is well again now that it can express itself with games of kick the can, extreme hide n seek tag, and monopoly. I still cry at Disney movies, watching Tangled just proved that fact, and as always true loves first kiss always leaves me bawling. I am such a little kid at times, but at least now, this bigger kid is in a much healthier place mentally and spiritually.
Here is to a great new year, and a new start, with a more positive outlook on life, love, and my family. Hopefully, I get more than five games and five practices this year, as I really want to play my heart out, not for my pappa, not for my dad, but for me. Plus, I figure it will be a nice change of pace from score keeping.
Waiting anxiously to hear about everyones summers
Laurel Lee
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